Well let me first say that it was not amazing due to having a significant other to spend the day with but other things happened which made it better. I learned a lot with the discussion with a friend, and also with my father about a certain topic. Not sure when it will work with my life but I am sure soon enough it will. I am also thinking about going to school to become a teacher now, but keep my Internet Savvy side active so that I can continue making money via the web and possibly create something large enough one day so that I don’t have to work anymore. Wouldn’t that be great? lol

Love: I love my friends and family, and the day I find someone whom I can share my life with I will do so. Until then I am trying to better myself and be able to support myself so when I do find the one I am ready for a relationship. I learned from my First and Only relationship, which I waited until after high school to date, that I was not ready for a relationship. My life was going crazy and being with her just added more to the weight on my shoulders, Yea I cared about her no doubt but I was unable to be the best boyfriend I could, and I knew she was unable to do her best, which is why I broke up with her lol. But in the end, we all make mistakes and we learn from them. Just do not use the word “Love” unless you know what your getting yourself into, because once you use it, you just took your relationship up a notch! To those in relationships I wish you the best of luck and to those single, don’t rush it if your still young, you have plenty of time left on earth to worry about Love later down the road in life. When your ready, then go for it.

Well I went and saw “Legion” tonight at the midnight premier and to be honest I didn’t really get to watch it thoroughly. I sat in the theater filled with a bunch of teenagers yelling out male private parts, and people talking throughout the entire movie. I had this woman whom looked like she was roughly 300lb+ in weight who kept talking trash about the actors/actresses, and I wanted to tell her,” Do you really think you could have done a better job?” but I know if I did she would have said she could, and I would have laughed and got punched in the face by her date. So I held my tongue, but then this woman has a purse that basically matched her weight size, because she was able to carry what looked like 5-10 pieces of beef jerky that were bigger than my head. I am guessing she went to Costco and bought the bulk size and then went to the movie theater, but I really don’t know. lol. I am not trying to make fun of this woman, but seriously talk about setting yourself up for it. I think I laughed more at this lady during the movie, than ever before at a premier showing. Oh and I forgot, she finished her Icey and I pretty sure it was all gone but she wouldn’t put it down. It was like watching a big baby shaking a rattle, she was that desperate to get the rest of it.

Forgot to mention, I checked for the movie times and was positive Edwards was showing the midnight showing. So I show up at like 11ish to make sure I could get my tickets and have good seats. Met up with Val there and we walk in to get the tickets, and I don’t think about why the theater is so dead, dumb me right? lol. Well I saw my friend Sarah there, so I walked up and asked for a ticket and she tells me that they don’t even have a showing for it at midnight. MY LUCK RIGHT! So I think shes messing with me, but in all reality she wasn’t lol. So Val and I drove to AMC and that’s when the entire story above happened.. haha

I am still baffled as to why guys shout out male private parts, you would think if they are straight they would enjoy yelling out female private parts? But that’s just me. Well it was an adventurous night. Till my next update. See ya later!

Well I had nothing to do on this glorious rainy day, where I feel like if I step in a puddle I am going to end up falling into it. Gerry came and picked me up and we headed to AT&T to check out phones and plans, honestly we left that place in no time, I think they suck, end of discussion. I wanted to ask the employee if they had any statistics to prove they offered better signal and services than other companies but I highly doubt any of them have the knowledge of that. They would go,” uhh would you like a brochure?”

So we left from there and went to Verizon, where to real plans are at, and there not dropped calls every time you pick up your phone. Plus the phones are nicer, the only problem is they need to hurry up and get ahold of the iPhone contract to take over lol. I swear this place was like a zoo though, bunch of little kids running around and screaming and I think I saw a 2 year old crawling on the floor behind the desks by the employee entrance.. not sure if it was Bring your kids to work day or what, 10x worse than going to IKEA. Trust me, you don’t want to go there, it’s like disneyland for old people lmao.

Finally we finished up there and headed to Best Buy, I had to control myself here because even though I want to buy so many movies & games I know I don’t have the money too. I do have a very nice piece of plastic that I could charge with but alas I kept it together and did not buy anything. Sadly, neither did Gerry lol. So we went to Target, he had a gift card and here he bought a new game for his brothers PS3, yea well I guess you can say it’s theirs but technically he bought it for his brother. He bought “Resistance 2″. I played the first one and it was pretty good, especially the online game play. The bad part is that because he has to drive to work tonight, he didn’t even get to open the game. I’m sure his brother will though.

Once we arrived at his house, we went inside and he had to get his stuff ready for work. So I was going to just kick back and play some video games. Well that didn’t end up happening. His mother and I started to talk about how I was doing in life and what I was up too, then it went to me doing some website work for them. Honestly I am unsure how we got to this next topic, but then we started to talk about Politics and Religion, and even though it was interesting to hear what she had to say, I was not ready for the next hour of discussion lol. I just wanted to play video games. Don’t get me wrong I did enjoy it, but it was totally unexpected and long. I think she liked the fact that she was able to actually talk to me and I knew what she was talking about, rather than most young adults whom would have said, ” hmmm I don’t know” for just about the full hour.

Now I am getting tired but, I am headed to the movies tonight to go see Legion. Still haven’t got my tickets but I hope that I get their early enough so that they don’t run out before I get there, and I don’t end up with a crappy seat because I showed up late. To be honest, I am going on a whim that this movie is going to be good because normally I never go see midnight showings. Usually I am the kind of guy that goes to Terra Vista to watch the matinee showing around 11am or 1am because it is only $4.50, but that’s just me lol.

I have this feeling something bad is going to happen tonight, I will let you know when I get home, or if I make it back home at least. haha

I honestly had something prepared to type about but my mind went blank…

recently I talked to someone who I don’t know.. never really would have expected to talk to but we get along good, even though its mainly through texting we talk her and their we can lol. I see how she is, and how my old friends are and it feels amazing that this new person I don’t even really know, cares and wants to get to know me, to be friends, more than my old friends did.

I am trying to become a better person, I want to make a difference in this world whether it be small or large I do not care, I know I am meant for something bigger than who I am right now. I know along the way of my successes and failures I have lost friends because the choices I have made were not the choices they wanted me to make. Had a friend whom I was best friends with since 4th grade, we were brothers. He went one way and I went another over the years, and we tried to keep our friendship but the older we got the more distant we became. He fooled around and I didn’t. He doesn’t work, I do. I got my FIRST girlfriend and he had a problem with that because i dont know maybe he thought I was putting her ahead of him. We stopped talking for a long time, his birthday passed and I did not call him, I saw no reason to go back to being treated like shit for the choices I made he did not like. He called me for my birthday, and so I called him back to thank him. We became friends again like before, but then problems arose. He became good friends with a new guy, someone who was only bringing him down in life and not up, he started smoking a lot and tried to get me into it, I started smoking hookah tabacco and was fine because I got to hangout with my friend but then realized why should I be doing something I hated for YEARS just to try and fit it, to try and keep my friend. I shouldn’t have to become someone I am not to keep a friendship.

I tried to help him, to get a job. He didn’t care. I tried to help him sign up for school. He didn’t care. He was to interested in getting high with his new buddy that we don’t even talk anymore. It has been a few months again but I think now it is going to be permanent. I am starting to realize people do not change for ANYONE, all we do is adapt and try to keep what we had but acquire the new things we have to to keep moving forward down our road called life.

To think, this girl that has only talked to me for a week, doesn’t care about how I am, what I am, or my faults. She listens and she doesn’t even know me. Yet my friend from 4th grade doesn’t even give a hoot if I am going to be alive or dead tomorrow. I guess it is true, the older you get, you have no friends. You know people, but they are not your friends. The only people you can truly call friends are the ones that actually care about you as a person, and the relationship between you.

I am sorry to all of you, I lost my best friend, but I gained another.

I also lost my ex-girlfriend who was my best friend, I did everything for her. I believe that the person you are with and you marry is your best friend for life, you can talk about anything together, you do everything together. You could not live one moment of your life without that person by your side, and that is how I knew me and her were not meant to be together. She did not need me in her life, she was the same with or without me, so why be there? I know I made an impact in her life and she made one in mine, whether it was good or bad it does not matter. I know in mine she made a good impact but also a bad impact on how I now see women in the future.

Off to work 12AM to 9AM. – Good Night