Well let me first say that it was not amazing due to having a significant other to spend the day with but other things happened which made it better. I learned a lot with the discussion with a friend, and also with my father about a certain topic. Not sure when it will work with my life but I am sure soon enough it will. I am also thinking about going to school to become a teacher now, but keep my Internet Savvy side active so that I can continue making money via the web and possibly create something large enough one day so that I don’t have to work anymore. Wouldn’t that be great? lol

Love: I love my friends and family, and the day I find someone whom I can share my life with I will do so. Until then I am trying to better myself and be able to support myself so when I do find the one I am ready for a relationship. I learned from my First and Only relationship, which I waited until after high school to date, that I was not ready for a relationship. My life was going crazy and being with her just added more to the weight on my shoulders, Yea I cared about her no doubt but I was unable to be the best boyfriend I could, and I knew she was unable to do her best, which is why I broke up with her lol. But in the end, we all make mistakes and we learn from them. Just do not use the word “Love” unless you know what your getting yourself into, because once you use it, you just took your relationship up a notch! To those in relationships I wish you the best of luck and to those single, don’t rush it if your still young, you have plenty of time left on earth to worry about Love later down the road in life. When your ready, then go for it.

I have been going through many problems lately and I just can’t stand the fact that I feel my family, and the love we once had is slowing disappearing. My mother now has her new boyfriend/fiance , my sister I only see at church, and my dad whom I live with I hardly spend time with. I spend time with my friends but there is no love there, just relationships and such. I have yet to really understand the concept of being in love.

There is someone that even though I know.. it would never work out even if I tried. I still dream about the possibilities of it happening. I try to ignore the fact I have those dreams and such. It is almost as if I feel it was love at first sight before I even knew what love was. It was as if I felt connected to that person in some way but I just didn’t know back then.

I used to really be the shy guy when it came to women and going out on dates and etc. Let’s put it this way.. I’m not like that much any more but because people started so young dating and learning and etc about it all, now people are professionals compared to what my level is.

I don’t really know who I am anymore.. I grew up raised to be a good kid, with manners and just responsible and such. I did good while I was young but then as I grew older I began to dwindle down the ladder and falling away from who I used to be. I started ignoring what I should have been doing in high school which was paying attention and actually doing the work. Instead I spent 4-8 hours a day on my computer trying to learn more about the internet and domain names, websites and etc. I feel because of this venture into the internet and trying to make money instead of doing good school, I did poor in school. But I have to admit that if I didn’t follow this venture into the internet business, that I would never be able to go to school because I probably would not be able to afford it. My mother always said she would help me with school, but where was she when I needed her? Where is she now? Not in my life.

I honestly have to say that even though I had a family growing up, and friends, and even a girl friend. I still felt as if I was working alone in the world. To be the best I had to do it all on my own and I couldn’t depend on anyone for anything, and still till this day I somewhat feel like that. I try to take down my guard and trust people whom I know I can talk to or that can help me. I just feel overwhelmed with life and the responsabilities that come with it. Life.Death.Love.Laughter.

I recently deleted my Myspace and Facebook. I felt obligated to re-create them with who I really am, and just start fresh and whole. I will only add friends that I currently talk to, and as for the random people I had, sorry. I plan on updating them both today and adding the real Louie to them.

I am not sure how many people read my blog, or if they still do but I am sorry for the delay in my blog postings. I have been busy with work offline, and friends and family. I have been totally ignorant to the fact I missed working online and such. I pushed it off trying to do some tests with offline stuff, doing thing’s I would not normally do in order to gain some knowledge to be able to run TheYoungTherapist better.

here is a little update that I posted on Facebook and Myspace:

Relationships. Please Read. Urgent.

Key thing: You are not ready

I honestly believe people jumping into relationships at our age are bound for disappointment and the loss of their virginity which should be saved for the right one.

I believe that if you really love someone and you think it is the right one, then you don’t need sex for anything, it is not something you will require within your relationship to be happy because just being with that person makes you smile all the time.

Your partner should be your best friend, the one you want to be with always, through everything and anything. If they are not there you miss them. You can talk to them about anything.

I know I am not ready for a true relationship, because I did not want to date in High School, so I waited until after High School. I jumped into a relationship merely because I WANTED a girlfriend. Look how that turned out because I was doing what I wanted instead of just waiting for the right one. Had some good times but nothing but problems and it only made my life that much more difficult.

Thus I urge everyone of you to just live your lives while you still can. Enjoy being young and adventure. Gain more knowledge and get the career you want before you step into any real commitment. I always say..

“Always be able to take care of yourself, before you take care of another person”

Goes for everything. Emotion. Money. Religion. Love

I leave you with this my friends.

Never stop being the person you are because you think you have to. People change yes, but never stop being you.